Being in The Light.

I John 5:5-7 (ESV): ...God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. 6 If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

 

After listening to the sermon on Sunday, I found myself singing (ever so quietly) the old

D.C. Talk song …

I want to be in the Light

As You are in the Light

I want to shine like the stars in the heavens

Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation

Cause all I want is to be in the Light

 

And I thought, “Do I believe I could shine like the stars in the heavens?” And if I don’t believe that, I’m not sure I am walking in the light- the truth about how God created me! In 1 John 5:6 it talks about being in fellowship with Jesus. This fellowship is imperative to being in the light, but also because of our fellowship with Him we can have be in this light. These aren’t separate- they are together- unified. This concept feels mysterious to me … but I think it’s supposed to. I think this is the essence of faith- trusting this. I appreciate the way Brene Brown defines faith in her book Gifts of Imperfection, “Faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty”

 

This moved my thinking into when do I let go of my fear of uncertainty? I love control and structure and security. Releasing that brings in uncertainty, which sometimes brings in fear and anxiety...except inside of relationships where there is trust. Which brings me back to verse 7, But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another…

When we have fellowship with one another there is trust in who we are in the midst of trusting who the other is. Richard Rohr in his book Divine Dance describes it this way,

“...we know and accept ourselves in the very same movement in which we’re knowing and accepting God; in surrendering to God, we simultaneously accept our best and fullest self.”

When I think of it this way, I’m content with the mystery, because I am known and loved inside of it, which is humbling.

“We’re standing in the middle of an awesome mystery - life itself! - and the only appropriate response before this mystery is humility.” Richard Rohr, Divine Dance

                                                                                                                    -Mandy Mahr